Day 9 - The Person Who Has Gotten You Through The Most

Day 9 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

Bear and I have known each other since the first day of 7th grade. He has been there as I have grown up from a truly annoying teenager to the (hopefully less annoying) wife and mother I am today. He stood by me through some really hard times with both his family and my own...overriding his own distaste for conflict to defend me from those who should be most supportive in our lives and then biting his tongue until it bled when I asked. He put up with my craziness as we planned our wedding. He took exceptional care of me as I struggled through a very rough pregnancy and delivery to bring Bubbles into the world. He worked hard (as did I) to get out of crushing debt in order to buy our home. He provided a strong shoulder through months of devastation following a miscarriage. He tried every tactic he could think of to calm my fears through another (much easier) pregnancy and delivery as we completed our family with Animal. He stands firmly by my side on this bumpy journey to raise our children. And he loves me unwaveringly despite my many shortcomings.

That first paragraph makes it sound like our lives together have been rife with sorrow, but in reality those are just snippets of time in the 25 years we have known each other. Though some of those moments have really tested the strength of our love and still weigh heavy on my heart, the good times FAR outweigh the bad.

Bear has been there for me through thick and thin, good and bad, hard and easy. And with every passing snippet, I have become more certain that I can count on him to see me through anything this world throws at us.

The Power of Three Will Set Us Free*

I am struggling at work today. A combination of zero motivation and holding a major grudge** has left me unfocused and rather unproductive. I have spent the last 2 hours trying desperately to stay on task and get things done, but all I can think about is getting out of here and heading home (only 30 more minutes!).

The funny thing is that when I get home, I will have to mediate the inevitable bickering between Bubbles and Animal (the fighting is at an all time high), help with homework, do the dishes, cook dinner, force Bubbles (and Animal if there is time) to take a shower, and who knows what else. I don’t really feel like doing any of those things either. I just got two new games for my DS, and all I REALLY want to do is curl up in my chair and play. But I am really looking forward to getting home and facing what lies ahead.

And the reason, as corny as it sounds, is LOVE. I know that Bear loves me with all his heart…despite all my flaws (read: inherent laziness). I know that Bubbles and Animal are just happy to have me around and would probably PREFER that I be lazy with them. I know that if I decided to go home and do nothing but play my games, or read a book, or watch TV or anything else really, Bear would come home and pick up the slack, and he wouldn’t even complain about it! He has this twisted idea that I DESERVE downtime, and he encourages my laziness on a regular basis!

I am feeling very unappreciated at work right now and, as of late, have found myself less interested in trying. I am sure that this feeling will pass given enough time (and sleep!). In the meantime, I am so very grateful to have the love of my family to see me through. No matter what happens at work, I know when I get home, I will be surrounded by three people who love me unconditionally and truly appreciate the things that I do for them.



*So who can guess where this comes from?


**I had one of the worst migraines I have had in a LONG time yesterday and when I told my boss I needed to go home she threw a fit and basically told me that I couldn’t because she had a project she wanted me to do. I finished the project 1 ½ before the time I usually leave, and she suggested that I leave then cause I “didn’t look so good”. I told her no thanks, I would just tough it out the rest of the day. I was NOT a happy girl!